Synonyms for reticence: disinclination, hesitance, hesitancy, reluctance, unwillingness
Near Antonyms for reticence: assurance, assuredness, certainty, certitude, conviction, positiveness, sureness, surety
I get these plants from Annie's Annuals and Perennials, and Annie isn't cheap! But when the plants arrive at the end of this month (she knows how hot it gets here, so she sends them only as it BEGINS to cool off), they will be gorgeous and healthy! Positively ROBUST!! They will go outside...but will I dither again? And what causes my reluctance to care for these wonderful hummingbird plants? I want to. The question is how BADLY do I want to? Can I overcome this battle between willingness and unwillingness?
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I watered again yesterday. Those plants that I already have, that were starved for water until drooping and listless, are still alive! OMG! Every other day seems just fine. We're back into the mid- to upper 90s again, lasting as far out as weather dot com will take us. Not bad for this time of year! Amazing, in fact. I still have two full planters of strawberries (happily), one of each variety, and they will send out runners that will turn into new strawberry plants that I'll refill the empty planters on either side. I feel like I'm reprieved!
Today I would like to get out there and trim back more whippy weeds. Yesterday, not only did I water, but I cut back the strangling whippy weeds (invasive morning glory vines) which were climbing up and twisting around EVERYTHING out there: tomato plants, tree collards, the hummer plants, the table itself, gardening tools, and even my shepherd's hook that holds my hummingbird feeder! That last one is so bad because the vine creates a pathway for the ANTS (UGH!) to crawl up the pole to the feeder and foul it for the hummers! But it's all cut down now in that area. ha ha ha!
Today it's my chives, etc. The whippy weeds, with huge bright blue tubular-shaped flowers, are starting to climb over my dog's yard fence and into the tall planters below (filled with herbs), and they will strangle everything (as they are wont to do), by making an impenetrable covering, blocking out all sunlight and eventually killing my plants. The whole thing needs a good cleaning out. My Cha Cha chives (a very unusual plant! Allium schoenoprasum 'Cha Cha' (Chives 'Cha Cha')) are well established in that planter and that monstrous vine is NOT going to kill them before I get my butt out there to save them!!
As I reread the above, I found myself laughing. If only others would be as faithful and constant to me as my plants are. I was beginning to doubt that I could take care of the even more exotic, but well suited for this environment (hot and dry climates, little water once established) as these newcomer hummingbird plants will be. But as long as my gout stays at bay, I should be able to slip my shoes on and get out there to water at least.
And some of these plants are real doozies!! And some are for winter, some are for summer, and some are for year around so my hummers don't miss a meal even if I've not done my job to feed them! I'm especially liking the idea of the Mimulus 'Jelly Bean Fiesta Marigold' - it's bright red and tubular (for the hummers) and is GORGEOUS!
Even I can handle that! And there's another large bush with TONS of bright red slender tubes that the hummers love. I've seen them out there going from flower to flower, often fighting with one another to see who "gets" the plant (or the feeder)! I have true blue and bright yellow and orange and purple and white plants, too. Anything they want. I just hope that nothing destroys them, like rats or dogs trying to kill rats by digging them out. It could (and has) happened.Profuse eye-popping amber-red 2” blooms edged in gold appear year-round along the coast and Spring-Fall in hottest areas. Tolerant of heat and zero Summer moisture, but will stay green and bloomy with some Summer water. - Annie's website
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Thank you, Oceantide. ♥ I appreciate that. I can't believe that you "follow" me. Wow. It must be exhaustive just slogging thru all my writings, but this is SO therapeutic for me! Right now I just did the dishes which made my back seize up and now I'm sitting down again. I am really getting hungry, but due to the bc and for the aromatase inhibitors, I'm going back to at minimum low carb/high fat, if not keto. Either way. Limited meat, especially red meat, but mostly chicken, or eggs, limited dairy (HWC is ok; it's mostly fat, not milk), and as many cruciferous veggies (broccoli, cabbage, Brussels Sprouts, bok choy, cauliflower [YAY!], COLLARD GREENS [DOUBLE YAY!], and even turnips!) as I can do sitting down to one meal. I'm looking for a good keto stir fry sauce recipe. Also I can now include citrus fruit (love me some navel oranges!), blueberries, red grapes, to prevent recurrence of my bc, and apples and pears (malic acid - good in preventing my gout flares) and of course, tart cherry juice.
And I can also now have some WHOLE GRAINS (Aromatase inhibitors). So if I down a bowl of oatmeal before my OMAD meal, especially if I make the groats, the true whole grain, not just a part of the seed, add cinnamon (lowers blood sugars), add erythritol or stevia for sweetness, or throw in some date pieces, top it all off with HWC (heavy whipping cream) = what a treat!! Maybe have that for dessert even! I'm definitely looking into a more holistic approach to estrogen reducing (aromatase inhibitors or AI) more through diet than what they have planned for me, like radiation and hormone therapy. I cannot have radiation because of my TP53 mutant gene that they found...or MAYBE I have it. They concluded that my findings were "INCONCLUSIVE". SAY WHAT? IF I have that gene mutation, radiation is NOT to be used! It can actually harm me or even cause another cancer! But they're still running around trying to get my copay and health insurance out of me while vehemently arraigning appointments for me to GET radiation! Nuts to that! I'll opt for an almond flour-blueberry muffin with flax seed - super healthy, absolutely delicious, able to be made ahead and frozen for whenever I need it. What's not to love? And it does the same darned thing as the pills - WITHOUT SIDE EFFECTS!!
And the problems with the "hormone therapy" (AI) is that it can CAUSE osteoarthritis. In addition to that, it can bring on joint pain (and usually does!) and...well, just let them tell it:
===============(Friday)What are the risks and side effects of aromatase inhibitors? The most common side effects of AIs are symptoms of menopause, such as hot flashes, night sweats, and vaginal dryness. These drugs can also cause muscle and joint pain. This side effect can be serious enough to cause some women to stop taking the drugs. - American Cancer Society
www.verywellhealth dot com › aromatase-inhibitors-for-preventing-breast-cancer-recurrence-4153970
Aromatase Inhibitors: Uses, Dosage, Side Effects, Interactions
Jul 31, 2021The common short-term side effects associated with all three aromatase inhibitors include: Hot flashes Joint pain Muscle pain Headache Night sweats Hair loss Insomnia Nausea Upset stomach Diarrhea Fatigue Depression Edema (tissue swelling) Of these, persistent joint and muscle pain are the commonly cited reasons for treatment termination.
WELL CRAP! I JUST ERASED HALF OF MY POST! AARRGGHH!!!
I'm going to bed...G'nite...
Honeybera