I just joined.

[zlagv]

I just joined, and the amazing opening post by Jonesy inspired me to actually post a "new member" message. I first saw the guidelines mention that it was recommended to do so, but the warmth of Jonesy's message to newbies persuaded me, so I thank them for that.

I am 32 years old and a victim of both childhood sexual abuse, and later, an abusive marriage. We divorced and I am now married to a loving, respectful, compassionate man and have a wonderful little girl. I have, since she was born, lost 100+ pounds and am in the best physical shape of my life. I've gone through better and worse periods of mental health; I was last in therapy in January 2018. Objectively things are great but I'm always suffering inside to a greater or lesser extent. I've lately been desperate for some peer-to-peer support but could not find any in-person support groups in my area. I may not have looked very hard; doing so is hard in and of itself. But I'm relieved to have found this website and resolve to put my very best foot forward here.

[Flifflo]

Hello zlagv,

Welcome. I think you will find this a very welcoming community. I have found a lot to relate to and relief in expressing things here. I hope you do too.

Warmly,
Flifflo

[coconuts]

Welcome. Glad you found us.
Coconuts

[Serenity]

Welcome to isurivive, zlagv. I'm sorry for the reasons but glad you are here.

With care,
Serenity

[Jonesy]

Hi zlagv

Adding my warm welcome to the mix

[reisha]

Hi zlagv

What ^they^ said

Sending gentle support

[Harbor]

Welcome zlagv

You are among friends who can empathize with you, regardless of where you are in your journey toward recovery. After awhile you will likely find that seeking in-person support seems less daunting. We're here for you.

[AStarIsTorn]

Hi zlagv,

I'm also new here, also 32 with a little one, and also trying to navigate support groups. I definitely relate to suffering inside while appearing to have it all together. You're not alone, and I guess I'm not either.

[coconuts]

Definitely a common theme here. I've got it all together with this mask on. Underneath it's a chaotic mess.