Hi everyone,
When I write back on here I really struggle, I must delete and retype so much.
I'm constantly questioning how I will appear I'm so conscious of acting correctly/incorrectly.
If I was an animal I would definitely be a chameleon.
I feel like I've got so much happening right now and I've been silent for so long. But now I'm consciously aware that all the things I've been called; too much, talk to much, move to much or been rejected in what I say or how I act. Thats the cause of this and not because I am any of those things.
I still just guess I'm looking for approval.
I just see how much the child in me wanted to be liked and I feel so sad for her.
This was supposed to be a light hearted thread
I've just opened the door to my secrets, so it's all flooding in.
I get triggered alot!
So that went a little of topic, I still retyped, forgot I was cooking dinner and was late for yoga.
Please tell me I'm not the only one
Tryingtostayafloat
How many times do you, rewrite why replying to someone on here?
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How many times do you, rewrite why replying to someone on here?
I thought my heart was failing
Hey you're ok, you seem to be still standing
Flashes appeared in the corner of my eyes, I saw the stars and I didn't ask why
Heard the voices and caught my breath
So close and yet so far from death
-Florence + the machine
Hey you're ok, you seem to be still standing
Flashes appeared in the corner of my eyes, I saw the stars and I didn't ask why
Heard the voices and caught my breath
So close and yet so far from death
-Florence + the machine
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Re: How many times do you, rewrite why replying to someone on here?
I think alot of us second guess our selves. Part of abuse tells us that everything is wrong with us so the confidence is hard to find at times. Really though whatever you say here is probably just fine
Coconuts
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Re: How many times do you, rewrite why replying to someone on here?
Hey Tryingtostayafloat,
I could have written that post myself! (Well... except for the yoga!)
I have however, nearly accepted that what I write may be misinterpreted depending on the reader's state of mind, and that ultimately isn't my problem. (But I do worry about that!)
I have also been told I talk too much, and that is a cause of huge anxiety for me.
Crow
I could have written that post myself! (Well... except for the yoga!)
I have however, nearly accepted that what I write may be misinterpreted depending on the reader's state of mind, and that ultimately isn't my problem. (But I do worry about that!)
I have also been told I talk too much, and that is a cause of huge anxiety for me.
Crow
A little boy hides in an adult's disguise.
Quote taken from an original poem that I have written.
Quote taken from an original poem that I have written.
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Re: How many times do you, rewrite why replying to someone on here?
Hi Coconuts and Crow,
In some ways I'm glad it's not just me, but I'm also really sorry that suffer with your confidence because of the things that have been said and done in your lives.
Coconuts, thank you for saying that here is OK whatever we write, I'm learning how to open up and be authentically me. Here seems like the best place to do that.
Thank you crow for sharing that, your right it isn't our problem, but we also do not wish to be the cause of a problem. I'm also sorry you were told you talk to much, its really not nice and has made me so self conscious, although now I try to own and just say that's the way I am. If I'm not talking I'm thinking and sometimes I really don't want to be inside my head it's too easy to become lost.
Sometimes I've thought so much about what I should say before I say it that I then can't speak like the words won't come, then I get scared incase the words don't come and other times I just blurt it all out and what I say has nothing to do with what was going on haha.
I do get strange looks from my partner now, prob wondering what the hell he got himself into
Tryingtostayafloat
In some ways I'm glad it's not just me, but I'm also really sorry that suffer with your confidence because of the things that have been said and done in your lives.
Coconuts, thank you for saying that here is OK whatever we write, I'm learning how to open up and be authentically me. Here seems like the best place to do that.
Thank you crow for sharing that, your right it isn't our problem, but we also do not wish to be the cause of a problem. I'm also sorry you were told you talk to much, its really not nice and has made me so self conscious, although now I try to own and just say that's the way I am. If I'm not talking I'm thinking and sometimes I really don't want to be inside my head it's too easy to become lost.
Sometimes I've thought so much about what I should say before I say it that I then can't speak like the words won't come, then I get scared incase the words don't come and other times I just blurt it all out and what I say has nothing to do with what was going on haha.
I do get strange looks from my partner now, prob wondering what the hell he got himself into
Tryingtostayafloat
Last edited by Jonesy on Sat May 15, 2021 9:38 am, edited 1 time in total.
Reason: Changed MT to NT, as no triggering detail
Reason: Changed MT to NT, as no triggering detail
I thought my heart was failing
Hey you're ok, you seem to be still standing
Flashes appeared in the corner of my eyes, I saw the stars and I didn't ask why
Heard the voices and caught my breath
So close and yet so far from death
-Florence + the machine
Hey you're ok, you seem to be still standing
Flashes appeared in the corner of my eyes, I saw the stars and I didn't ask why
Heard the voices and caught my breath
So close and yet so far from death
-Florence + the machine