Nazdaq returns
Posted: Thu Jul 05, 2018 5:40 pm
Hi all,
I am a really old member, I think I was on here in 2008-2009 maybe? I am returning because I had my marriage breakdown and my soon-to-be ex husband took my 1y.o daughter away from me (on her birthday no less!) She'll be 2y.o tomorrow.
I **might** get to see her tomorrow on her birthday but it's in a contact centre, 100% supervised at all times and only for an hour.
I have never been to a contact centre in my life and I don't know what to expect at all...
I don't even know if she'll remember me since she was so young when she was taken from me. I didn't get to see her much before she was taken either, my ex emotionally abused me for months prior instigating a major suicide attempt (I am diagnosed BPD -- EUPD, or emotionally unstable personality disorder as it is termed now) so anyways, I had a broken leg (smashed in 10x places, nearly was an amputation) at the time she was taken. I was getting around on crutches but I had to do two flights of stairs up and down to my flat on a daily basis (I live in a building with no lift) anyways so my ex knew he could just put her in a daycare and I couldn't follow and then in the evenings he'd push me about if I tried to get near her for example, or he'd just put her to bed. He wouldn't even let me feed her dinner, or read her a story.
I almost died giving birth to her and I can't have anymore kids most likely (but that's a story for another time)
So yeah, if anyone has experience of contact centres for seeing their kids (in the UK) please tell me it'll be OK?
I'm also stressing because I have an emotional support dog who goes everywhere with me, but I know I cannot take her with me tomorrow.
I only have to leave her for a couple of hours and she'll be crated and probably sleeping but it still stresses me out having to leave her. I do have a face-to-face meeting with my mental health case worker in the afternoon though so that will help as it'll be either before the visitation or after it.
**sigh**
Other irony (which was a little triggering) is that my daughter is called Harmony.
The moderator of this forum also goes by that name, noticed when I clicked on to post.
The universe always likes to throw odd coincidences like that at me (like my lawyer who is working to get my daughter back to me, his daughter who he's also banned from seeing has the same birthday as mine)
**sigh**
Thank you for reading this far </virtual cookie>
I am a really old member, I think I was on here in 2008-2009 maybe? I am returning because I had my marriage breakdown and my soon-to-be ex husband took my 1y.o daughter away from me (on her birthday no less!) She'll be 2y.o tomorrow.
I **might** get to see her tomorrow on her birthday but it's in a contact centre, 100% supervised at all times and only for an hour.
I have never been to a contact centre in my life and I don't know what to expect at all...
I don't even know if she'll remember me since she was so young when she was taken from me. I didn't get to see her much before she was taken either, my ex emotionally abused me for months prior instigating a major suicide attempt (I am diagnosed BPD -- EUPD, or emotionally unstable personality disorder as it is termed now) so anyways, I had a broken leg (smashed in 10x places, nearly was an amputation) at the time she was taken. I was getting around on crutches but I had to do two flights of stairs up and down to my flat on a daily basis (I live in a building with no lift) anyways so my ex knew he could just put her in a daycare and I couldn't follow and then in the evenings he'd push me about if I tried to get near her for example, or he'd just put her to bed. He wouldn't even let me feed her dinner, or read her a story.
I almost died giving birth to her and I can't have anymore kids most likely (but that's a story for another time)
So yeah, if anyone has experience of contact centres for seeing their kids (in the UK) please tell me it'll be OK?
I'm also stressing because I have an emotional support dog who goes everywhere with me, but I know I cannot take her with me tomorrow.
I only have to leave her for a couple of hours and she'll be crated and probably sleeping but it still stresses me out having to leave her. I do have a face-to-face meeting with my mental health case worker in the afternoon though so that will help as it'll be either before the visitation or after it.
**sigh**
Other irony (which was a little triggering) is that my daughter is called Harmony.
The moderator of this forum also goes by that name, noticed when I clicked on to post.
The universe always likes to throw odd coincidences like that at me (like my lawyer who is working to get my daughter back to me, his daughter who he's also banned from seeing has the same birthday as mine)
**sigh**
Thank you for reading this far </virtual cookie>