I can, I will, I am

[Tryingtostayafloat]

I wrote this the other night after dispersing my anger, and a 4 page journal entry, when I realised my inner critic was really goading me. I automatically questioned it and the picture in my mind went fuzzy. I came to, in a sequence of breathing, I realised what my brain sees as a movie playing in my head and the questioning my movie selves were having actually paused me allowing my brain to send a message to my body to breath which faded my movie away. Its so cool that we can do that.


Constant trigger enducing emotional flashback
(yeah I'm done, fuck that)
Met with inner critic for personal death match
If I can tame it,
Then I can correct that
No more act and reacting
I can learn to put my preach into practice
It may look like a relapse
I must slow to put the world in perspective

[Crow]

Nice. I like how it made me read it over and over again.
It seemed like one big positive self talk moment.

Crow

[Tryingtostayafloat]

Thank you, I'm glad it can help others too

[there]

Ttsa,

It reads like you are taking your power back. You know what for, and how you're going to do it.

Lately, I said to the T, "I'm done!" about 20 times. And before too long, I'm going to be done with her, too.

Acting and reacting...I'm not going give my energy over to that like I have.

Thanks!


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[Tryingtostayafloat]

Hi there,

Thank you feel like I'm learning to use my emotions to support me rather than punish me.

Its good to hear you have felt your strength too
(I don't know if that makes sense)

Tryingtostayafloat

[Harmony]

Great to meet you in chat today. Thanks for the reassurance note.

I love the title of your thread.

Harmony

[Tryingtostayafloat]

Thank you Harmony.
I'm glad you saw it too