Something Simple

[wolfspirit]

Wonderful idea!

[IMA]

Today I want to live...live for the better, regain lost strength, and explore unknown knowledge.

[IMA]

With my safe place...the last thing I need to do is get pins to hang up my purple Christmas lights

[wolfspirit]

Sounds peaceful

[IMA]

Honestly, nothing really turns me on anymore after being raped and all...looking back and writing this down to only have people making fun of the fact that I can't handle anything sexual right now.... it really traumatized me more, this disfuntion of mine it's a curse that will turn into a blessing.

I am able to focus on people's personalities vs attractions.
I am able to focus on other needs like education and work.

But I honestly feel that part of me is shut off... I haven't been able regain composure.

[IMA]

Looking back I realized that after all that has happened I'm bisexual but more pansexual now.... But for right now again I can't even handle sexual thoughts, without flashing back to those moments...I'll talk about it with my therapist soon on how I feel about this now.

[wolfspirit]

IMA,
You are aware of your sexuality and I think that means you've kept some power in knowing that, despite the violations.
I think people laughing is their problem, really.
I remember this quote I read that kinda relates:
You shouldn't be worried about what I'm doing...you should be worried about why your worried about what I'm doing.

Addressing this in therapy is a smart idea since the images and thoughts are there in an intrusive way.
I do that a lot.

ws

[IMA]

Thank you WS for your insights they open a lot of new found self love.

[IMA]

It's weird how you can eat something over hundred times and forget how good it tastes on the tongue.
my favorite foods are:
1. Pancakes
2. Waffles
3. Scrambled Eggs
4. Fried rice with tofu
5. Milo
6. And ....

[wolfspirit]

How about strawberries dipped in chocolate?