I can't let it go... remembering

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Nelll
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Re: I can't let it go... remembering

Post by Nelll »

Hi Crow.
That's really interesting about what you had said after you surgery. I would also say that this would have been something you wanted to say all along, too.
I wonder how past you really felt saying those words, even if you can't remember.

I remember when my dad broke his back and he called both of his girlfriend's to come visit him at the same time. I was there also and it was extremely awkward and my dad just stared at them blankly. Thinking of it now, it was hilarious. He was a 55 year old with two girlfriends in the same room.

I hope your doing okay today
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Chessgirl
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Re: I can't let it go... remembering

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Oh crow,
What a traumatizing experience... humiliating, icky, and violating. My heart aches for that boy being put on display. Your parents had no concept of boundaries. Iโ€™m so sorry you dealt with this. How brave to share.
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Crow
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Re: I can't let it go... remembering

Post by Crow »

You know... Sometimes I feel like I'm never going to heal from all I've been through. Too sensitive. Too hurt. Just want it all to go away...
A little boy hides in an adult's disguise.
Quote taken from an original poem that I have written.
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Re: I can't let it go... remembering

Post by Chessgirl »

I know that feeling, and I have accepted I may be dealing with these issues my entire life. I pray it gets easier though. I think you are going through a rough patch as well, and I really believe it will get easier for you too. Just hang in there Crow! You are doing the best you can, considering all you have been through! I think you handling everything quite well. :D
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Re: I can't let it go... remembering

Post by Kokoschka »

Eagle,
Here's to your granfather๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜… l take valium once in a while but something like that never happened to me๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜… Kokoschka

P.S. Sorry but l forget sometimes... were you the one comforting me about my old age?? Saying something about 90 being the "new old"?๐Ÿ˜ธ๐Ÿ˜€
..but god bless the child that's got his own... (Billie Holiday)
there
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Re: I can't let it go... remembering

Post by there »

Wow, Crow,
Totally off that you were treated like an object with no dignity or will.

Sedation seems to remove inhibitions! Works like truth serum?!



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