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Yay! Lots of good things
Posted: Thu Oct 04, 2012 12:27 am
by becomingbutterfly
I just wanted to share some sunshine that has been happening for me. Most of my symptoms of things are at a minimum right now. So, just the absence of these things makes life pretty good.
First and foremost, I was accepted into my top choice for university! Yay!
I also recently started practicing as a leading part in a play. I quit a job and a play that weren't good for me, and took care of myself. So now, I have another part time job that is really rewarding, and I'm really seeing a lot of good things coming out of it. Plus, I'm filling in my bucket list slowly but surely. Just little things, like camping. I know things go up and down, but right now, I like being on the upside of all this.
One other thing that's been tough but rewarding is figuring things out about the abuse. I'm starting to connect dots and find pieces and understand where I fit into all of this. It's hard to explain, but it's a good feeling, understanding why my parents acted this way and why I reacted other ways. It's hard, but it's a good thing too. So, I just wanted to share these things. Much love to all.
Re: Yay! Lots of good things
Posted: Thu Oct 04, 2012 1:05 am
by FrumSurvivor
Butterfly, I am thrilled to hear! It's always nice to hear that things are going well. May it only continue like this!
FrumSurvivor
Re: Yay! Lots of good things
Posted: Thu Oct 04, 2012 1:11 am
by HealingHearts
(((BecomingButterfly)))
Thank you for sharing these good things. It helps us to see that good things do happen. Wishing you many more continued blessings. You are strong.
HealingHeats
Re: Yay! Lots of good things
Posted: Thu Oct 04, 2012 2:12 am
by Magical Thinker
(((((BecomingButterfly))))
Many congratulations on being accepted to university, on your new, rewarding job and on beginning a new play. Thank you so much for sharing your good news. It gives me hope that positives can be experienced, even if going through this horrific healing process. You deserve all of these wonderful experiences and so much more.
Love,
Magical Thinker
Re: Yay! Lots of good things
Posted: Thu Oct 04, 2012 3:02 am
by Harmony
Dear becoming butterfly,
This is so very great news. I am so glad you are filling your bucket up with good stuff. That is the way to recover. Dump the old bad stuff best you can then fill up your life with good meaningful experiences, stuff and people. Thank you for sharing the good stuff too. Congratulations.
way to thrive,
Harmony
Re: Yay! Lots of good things
Posted: Thu Oct 04, 2012 4:06 am
by maggiegirl
Wonderful news! We are all proud if you!!
Re: Yay! Lots of good things
Posted: Sat Oct 06, 2012 6:20 pm
by Silent
That is really wonderful butterfly. So impressed and glad for you.
I understand the enormous comfort of improved understanding too.
Onwards and upwards.
Re: Yay! Lots of good things
Posted: Mon Oct 29, 2012 7:26 am
by becomingbutterfly
Lots of good things going even while accepting harder things.
EMDR is working! I went through a haunted house I was working in, and didn't get very startled.
I still have a long way to go, but that was awesome.
Also, I am not being so perfectionistic. I got a B on a test, and an F on some homework, when generally I'm a straight A student. But I just took them, and thought, "I'm ok with this." It was really really huge for me.
I'm sharing my poetry and artwork with others, sharing my story with friends, taking safe risks. It's beautiful to reach out to people, both on here and IRL. Being touched and counted as important is really a great feeling.
Thanks for all the support, ya'll. You guys continue to be such a great influence for me.
Re: Yay! Lots of good things
Posted: Mon Oct 29, 2012 10:37 am
by demi
Yay!! So lovely to hear all these great things becoming butterfly. I'm so happy for you. We all deserve happiness and good things. It feels so good when that starts to be possible rather than the good things being out held out there at some distant point in the future when we are 'done' healing. We deserve to live now and receive goodness now. And that just gives us more strength for the journey. I love that you are sharing art and poetry and feeling safe to reach out for connection with others. I'm glad that EMDR is working for you, it was helpful for me too although now I appreciate being able to self-help and so I use EFT, TAT and Reiki instead.
In friendship,
demi
Re: Yay! Lots of good things
Posted: Tue Dec 04, 2012 5:46 am
by becomingbutterfly
Thanks, demi.
I am a bit excited. I'm redecorating my room exactly the way
I want it. It's funny, my ways of rebelling are so benign, I know. But still, it's safe, and it's all my own. My mom would not accept other people's opinions or tastes. Since I couldn't express myself, I had to adopt hers and learn to like it. That's why this is so cool-I'm able to show off a bit more about me, who I am. The design is for it to look like a garden, with greens and blues, so I can have a calm place of retreat.
One other happy thing is that even though I'm in a high pressure time coming to the end of the school semester, I am not stressed. Normally my body would be tense, my arms tingling, my stomach up in knots. But lately, I've just been letting myself be, letting the world spin as it pleases, and I feel so much lighter without the burden of worry on my back.
Edit: OH! I forgot the real reason I wrote this. I dropped my brothers off at my mom's house. She said she liked my earrings, and was reaching up to touch them. My mind started racing, because I hate it when people touch my earrings...esp. her. So I shuddered and told her that I just don't like people touching my earrings. SCORE! Boundary made and honored! Kinda proud of myself right now.