Things i wish i knew earlier (positive post)

[johnram]

Hi all,

just thought i would share some thoughts, I sometimes get annoyed with myself, and i wish the following:

- that i had had a better first therapist and that she would have said i had cPTSD
- that i knew this would take a while to overcome
- that i had the courage to explain and understand what was going on for me, rather than avoid friends and ruin relationships
- had not wasted so much on some of my addictions

However, as i sit here today, planning ahead, i am grateful for:

- now being able to identify the patterns as cPTSD
- finding this and another forum to ask questions, and some really useful podcasts and youtube channels that i can really relate to
- through that, accepting parts of myself as a work in progress
- accepting other parts of myself
- appreciating i need to put myself first now (I default to saving the world and not my own sanity)
- realising that it isnt a life sentence and i can change (the biggest plus)

this journey is far from easy, but its needed, very needed and i am glad its getting its space (as well as my inner child - as much as i find it hard using that term)

anyway, wishing you all well

[Jonesy]

Hi johnram

I realise this is an old post and am sorry you didn't get any replies - it certainly slipped past me.
I see you haven't logged in for quite some time but, on the off chance you receive a notification for this reply, I wanted to ask how things are going now and hope you are well.

[johnram]

Thank you Jonesy

I am ok, still unpeeling layers but hope is still there

Attended then ran an inperson cptsd group for over a year too

Hope you are doing ok?

[Jonesy]

Hi johnram

So good to hear from you! Way to go - running a group, huh?
I am doing ok, thanks for asking

[greendreamdays]

That is great that you ran a group! Can you share a little bit about what you learned about cptsd?