I guess I should start with a disclaimer so Jonesy’s head doesn’t explode.
. Don’t want to confuse anyone. So here is the disclaimer. “I am not a doctor, nor do I play one on Television”. There, that was easy. However, what I’m writing comes from my interactions with my medical and psychological providers along with a unique learned insight on how the body and brain interact and deal with the issues of life. They helped leading me to this conclusion and are all agreeing with me and feel I’m on the right track.When I first came to isurvive, one of the things I said was before I die I wanted to be able to see what calm feels like. I’m finally there. It’s quite wonderful. It appears that I have finally been able to put all the demons to rest. So, here goes.
The final diagnosis: We looked at ADHD and they said I didn’t qualify. No attention deficit. We went to CPTSD. Once again, a lot of the symptoms were there, but all of the pieces of the puzzle just wouldn’t fit. Working with a psychologist, therapist and my gastroenterologist (for most of the physical symptoms) we finally came up with what appears to be the correct answer. The science community call it SPS which is Sensory Processing Sensitivity. The psychological community calls it HSP which is Highly ( or Hyper) Sensitive Person. It is not a disorder, but a genetic variation that is prevalent in about 20% of the world population. Interestingly, It is also prevalent is most other species on the planet as well from mammals to reptile, fish and even insects. We mentally process all sensory information (sight, smell, hearing etc) at a higher and much deeper lever than most people. We sense things at such a high level that It’s to the point that we can even absorb other’s emotions. It revolves around how our brains use certain neurotransmitters which are serotonin, dopamine, and norepinephrine. When we were doing EMDR in therapy on my childhood trauma, we found that most of those experiences were not so much about me feeling trauma, but how I was reacting to the pain or actions of others. My sensitivity to others caused me to accept that pain as my own and I continued to live with it throughout life. EMDR helped me disconnect those traumatic events from myself and help me understand why I took them as my own and couldn’t ever get over them. They are now just normal passed memories and I can view them as they actually were and without pain. I know a lot of you have expressed being highly sensitive. Look up Sensory Processing Sensitivity and it will give you the science behind it.
Anyone confused yet? It gets more complicated as I try to unravel it. I’ll stop here for now and see how this goes over before a open up the real bucket of worms. That is how the body reacts to those perceived traumatic inputs and how it becomes a vicious circle between mind and body. The mind controls the body, and then in turn the body controls the mind.
Eagle
But there is a difficulty I've heard of here in the UK with obtaining diagnoses, and it's likely I'll never get one, so I work with what I have.
. Never call it that though. You get more credit for calling it hole in one.