Hi Folks,
Just when you think you've discovered everything,another shark surfaces.
After all this time,discovered why i would 'drop' into depressions of various lengths
and depths . . . .wait for it . . . . .anytime I do NOT behave/do/say/etc.,etc.,
PERFECTLY! Those 2 loonies had me terrified I would make a mistake,so in order
to avoid a kick,belt,or screaming obscenities,I would try to be a nice, little, perfect,
ROBOT! It was even wrong of me to be SICK! I kid you not,because that deprived
them of their little SLAVE,so I was F...ing nuisance!
Kindness,
jimscarlet
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Perfect
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Re: Perfect
Hi jimscarlet
Good job on realising what has been causing the depression. I relate to your words and know what it is like to strive for perfection, when it is an unattainable goal. It was so wrong for you to be treated that way as a child. Realising and accepting what has been at the root of the depression is a big step forward, so I hope you feel proud of yourself. Do be gentle with yourself as you work through all this.
With caring
Ashia
Good job on realising what has been causing the depression. I relate to your words and know what it is like to strive for perfection, when it is an unattainable goal. It was so wrong for you to be treated that way as a child. Realising and accepting what has been at the root of the depression is a big step forward, so I hope you feel proud of yourself. Do be gentle with yourself as you work through all this.
With caring
Ashia
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Re: Perfect
Hi jimscarlet
Another penny drops, eh? Hope you are able to process this without too much more pain.
ps it was good to see your name pop up, I was wondering how things were going
Another penny drops, eh? Hope you are able to process this without too much more pain.
ps it was good to see your name pop up, I was wondering how things were going
You are important
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Re: Perfect
jimscarlet,
You are strong and so smart to have survived that abuse.
They didn't deserve to have you as their child.
Sending peaceful thoughts to soothe you after the anger you need to feel.
wolfspirit
You are strong and so smart to have survived that abuse.
They didn't deserve to have you as their child.
Sending peaceful thoughts to soothe you after the anger you need to feel.
wolfspirit
Wounds are where the light enters you.
Rumi
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Thank you dear people,much appreciated.
God Bless,
jimscarlet X
God Bless,
jimscarlet X
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