Hello to everyone, I am new here.

[Tignasse]

Hello, my name is tignasse. (it's the title of a book I like very much, It's a about a child in the French revolution)
FIrst of all I want to say that english is not my first language. Perhaps I sound sometimes quite odd then I am sorry.
I am 52 years old woman.

I found out that my father abused me at e very early age and that there are 3 accomplices.
I am a unwanted child and what I am really struggling with is the feeling of being abandoned. It is getting clearer that this is a omnipotent injury I am suffering from.
I did some therapy but I couldn't find a good therapist. In the end they weren't really on my side (,f. Example " your father loves you" ) . That did retraumatize me., because the child in me felt betrayed.
So I try to help myself for years. Although I do little progress my sympathy for myself has grown and I am more and more capable to be aware and articulate my feelings. What was forbidden in my childhood (even to notice what happened to me). Because they constantly told me that I am guilty.

It would be nice to find mutual support.
Thank you for reading my post.

[Serenity]

Hi Tignasse,

Welcome to isurvive. I'm sorry for the reasons, but glad you are here.

With care,
Serenity

[ephes]

Hi,
A warm welcome from me too. May you find what you are looking for.

[Jonesy]

Hi Tignasse

Adding my welcome to the mix

[EasyStreet]

Glad to welcome you, Tignasse. Make yourself at home and be well.