it took me a while to disclose the abuse, there are abusers i still haven't disclosed about yet. i am afraid sometimes that if i keep disclosing, there will come a point where i will be told "that's too much, how could all that happen to one person". i have not always been believed, so i worry that in the future i will be disbelieved
right now i have a psychiatrist who does believe me and we're working on finding me a therapist. it's been a really big thing for me, telling others about the abuse. i'm looking forward to starting a therapy that addresses the trauma
what else about me? i'm in my 20's, i like music, video games, books when i can concentrate on them long enough to read. the other parts, they say hello too. i'm not sure to use their names or not, because i don't want to give too much personal information. but anyways, the other parts besides me are listening and waiting to see how things go before they say more
oh and i forget too mention, i am also an artist, i draw and paint. not professionally, yet anyways, as i don't currently have a job. i am on benefits because of how poorly i have been doing the past few years. but i hope to improve one day and support myself. working on my healing is a new concept to me, for so long i thought, everything will always be terrible, things will never change. but that was not true and i have already done what i thought i could never do and told people about the abuse. so now i just have more steps to take on my journey. hopefully i can even help others on their journey as well! anyways, thanks for reading and listening to me
