Hi all! I am sort of new to this site. I signed up a while ago but cannot remember if I did any posting or not to introduce myself. So here it is:
I am the survivor of CSA by a brother of my mother. My mom knew it was going on and did nothing to stop it. I have been in therapy for a while and am learning a little about new coping methods and trying to make a move toward healing. This went on from when I was 9 months until I was 14 years old. So the first 14 years of my life essentially. I know that there were things wrong with it and that he was wrong in my head. Being r by someone who is 18 years older than me is just not right but for whatever reason I cannot seem to accept that.
I was also r repeatedly by a cousin a year older than me very violently. This has it's own issues.
Here I am trying to function in adult like and trying to make my way through the world but flashbacks, body memories, and nightmares do not help with this. I am angry a good majority of time and when I am not angry I am depressed. I know there are ways to move through my life but I cannot see a light in the closet of secrets.
Anyway that is me in a nutshell.
Sort of new here
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Welcome Kaybee,
You are not alone in this. Hope you find some company for healing from this harm.
with care,
Harmony
You are not alone in this. Hope you find some company for healing from this harm.
with care,
Harmony
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Hi Kaybes
A warm welcome to isurvive
A warm welcome to isurvive
You are important
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Thank you!
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Hello, Kaybes
You've survived a lot of trauma and you're reaching out for help. That is an amazing thing by itself.
I also have body memories, flashbacks, and depression. My anger has not been tapped into yet. I know it is there, though.
I'm glad you've shared with us what you're going through. I hope it helps ease some of the pain.
take care,
wolfspirit
You've survived a lot of trauma and you're reaching out for help. That is an amazing thing by itself.
I also have body memories, flashbacks, and depression. My anger has not been tapped into yet. I know it is there, though.
I'm glad you've shared with us what you're going through. I hope it helps ease some of the pain.
take care,
wolfspirit
Wounds are where the light enters you.
Rumi
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Kaybes,
Sorry to hear about your a****. Glad that you are here, and posting.
quixote
Sorry to hear about your a****. Glad that you are here, and posting.
quixote
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Hi Kaybes
Hope that you make it back here to write again soon. There is a lot of support to be found amidst some pretty awesome people.
Hope that you make it back here to write again soon. There is a lot of support to be found amidst some pretty awesome people.
You are important
Email: jonesy@isurvive.org
Email: jonesy@isurvive.org